The reason why

regarding Egypt's situation and the latest update about my studies, you see, i may not see eye to eye with others that says "Egypt wont get better" "It's too dangerous out there" "Egypt's education system is bad and we wont have jobs after this" "Other doctors will look at us like we are amateurs/a nobody" 
I hear this a lot. Lets just say, I am not the optimistic kind. I've always been surrounded by negative thoughts. People, in a strange way, will always influence my decision, but not this time. I have a feeling that things will get better. A feeling like, 'in the end, it depends on how hard you try to gain knowledge, and experience, by yourself". A feeling that, 'people can mistreat me, but I can get up and move forward and be better than they will ever be'. cus when I had no chance at all, this place, saved me. It gave me a chance. I hated Egypt like I hated shit, but as the time goes by, I got attached to it and whether or not things get better, in which I hope it will get better, I'm counting on Egypt to let me remain on my optimistic side, cus I have never felt more alive. as dramatic as it sounds, the things im saying and the thoughts im blurting out right now, are not only my thoughts, but some other people might think about it too. 

Ayah's been asking me, if I am sure that I wanna go back to Egypt ,and he definitely prefers for me to be in Egypt. He said, "Malaysia and Egypt are not so different, but Egypt has more Islamic values than any other place would have" and that was the reason why he wants me to go back to Egypt and pursue my dreams. and i agree with ayah. A man once said "Egypt tempat kita menjadi 'orang'" and i strongly agree with his statement. it did change me. I had to deal with bullshitters who shits bullshits about me to people in order to make people hate me. I used to fight with that kind of people, but ever since that happened, jadi malas. I'm not gonna fall to your level, so be it. and I became like that, when I was in Egypt. 

I became more independent, I didn't depend on TV for entertainment but instead, i do something else like going to the beach with Mia, and taking long walks or just relax on my bed, doing nothing. 
I met nice people there, nice housemates, created memories, joined tafaqquh(?) for the first time ever and went there without sighing. next year, kakak rumah nak buat usrah, pretty excited to see how it goes, cus i've never been to any of it.
what i'm trying to say is, in Egypt, I got exposed to religious stuff. good beneficial stuff, and i hope i remain the same by getting more exposure to these sort of beneficial events and i dont think i can ever be like this if I come back to Malaysia.

and so many other events, changed me. Seniors are nice. Professors are nice. The food aren't nice, the apartment are not nice/but it's nice, Egypt is nice, to me. So yeah. That is all. 
I wish everyone the best of luck for whatever decision you guys are about to make, and Allah knows what's best for you.