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My holiday is coming to an end. It has been three weeks now. Going back to Egypt this Thursday and I have foreseen my future there. Stresses, no more laughter. It is so sad that I have to end this. As soon as I get back, I have to continue struggling. I need to cover up my pointers if things goes bad and not the way I planned it and wanted it to be. As soon as I get back to egypt, I'm starting a whole new life. A whole new me insya Allah. A whole new goals. A whole new surrounding. I am pretty sure I'd be tearing up this Thursday leaving Malaysia. Leaving my family behind. They made my stay in Malaysia a great one. Never ending love I get from them. Never ending support. I screwed my finals up. I am scared, honestly. I'm feeling restless. Once I get back, I'm going to table up my life, put it in place and start organizing it. 

They say happiness is forever, but not for me. Happiness is temporary, and I will and might have dark clouds surrounding me in a few days. The only thing that will light me up is my Cokk and two of my friends that I miss. Trying not to get too attach to people. I might end up getting stabbed by the heart. I don't hate Egypt, I just hate myself for not trying to make it a better place to stay when I can. What makes it a better place to stay is when you have amazing people accompanying you in this very hard journey. I have 5 and a half more years to go, and I'm pretty sure these amazing people will be found. I'm looking forward to a new life, and a new step I'm about to take. God bless, and all the best. Assalamualaikum.